turns out that the ntfs module itself isn’t running automatically so I need to call it with modprobe, but even tho I did it and add ntfs flag in fstab, my drive is still running with fuseblk (doesn’t matter if the ntfs module turns on or off, adding ntfs flag in fstab is useless since both will use fuseblk).
I can’t remove ntfs-3g package since it will remove dracut-live which I think isn’t good..